Facing Fears, and leaving behind past feelings

     A few days ago, I sent a message to an old friend who had hurt me pretty bad. I told them about how I was effected by what they did, and that even though we couldn't be friends anymore, I forgave them. I told them how amazing they were and that God had such great plans for them in their life. I
was not rude, nor mean in the conversation, but I told them honestly, and sincerely that I was sure that God had many great plans for them and that I knew that they were going to do amazing things.

      For the first time in my life, I didn't run away from something that I was afraid of, and for the first time I felt like I had actually let something go and I didn't have to hold onto it anymore. It was such a great feeling!! There was this deep deep feeling of relief. I was terrified about how the conversation would go, but I faced it and I praise God that it went well and now I can let go of the hurt and bitterness.

     Slowly, and thoroughly I want to get rid of all the bad feelings that I harbor towards people that have hurt me in my past, and tell them personally that I forgive them. I want to seek closure for all the wounds that I have kept open for so many years. I want to no longer be a runner, but to be able to trust people and love without fear of hurt or damage.

And with joy in my heart I will, as a good friend says, dance in the rain like I have never been wet before.

Would you like to join me?? Would you like to look the bitterness that you carry in the face and say 'You are no longer welcome in my heart.' If you allow Him to, God can replace that bitterness with a joy that will overwhelm everything else.

Black hole. o.O

     A few weeks ago I received some words of wisdom from one of my favorite "Seers." He told me that he saw my  family getting sucked into a black hole. Now, at first I was completely surprised by the fact that he could say this with a smile on his face. A black hole? Why are you smiling about a black hole?! Then, he explained to me exactly what a black hole does.

     A black hole will tear things apart. Pull everything completely away. Doesn't sound very pleasant at all! But the great part about this is that it smashes it all back together, and in the middle of the mess it creates something beautiful, and something new.

     Now, it's been a few weeks and I realize that this is exactly what has been happening! I am learning more and more how to appreciate every single person in my family. They are amazing! No matter what my previous judgements were, they are incredible individuals, and I love them.

     My family has been coming together in their time of need, and it is truly awe inspiring. While things look like they might be falling apart, together we look the enemy in the eye and tell him, "You have no control in our family. God is still on the throne and is going to take care of us."

     And as we approach this holiday season, I have so much to be grateful for. Even if things aren't exactly what they used to be and even though there are people in our family that won't be able to join us this Christmas, we still have reasons to celebrate what we do have.

     I look around at things in my life that I used to think were ugly or broken or incomplete, and I realize that the only thing that was ugly, broken, or incomplete was my perspective on what perfection was.

     Perfection is standing in a room full of people that love me and would do anything for me if I needed them to. A room full of people that look at me with love, without judgement. We don't even need to be doing anything special, sitting on the couch watching a movie today was perfection.

     So, if it looks like you are facing nothing but darkness. Embrace it. If it pulls you apart, it is only going to push you back together to form something much more beautiful and worthwhile. Life is full of black holes, and if you look at the new beauty with an open heart, you will be surprised about how amazing life can become, even from the biggest of messes.

Smiles

I was in my volleyball class today and as I was looking around at my classmates I was noticing their smiles. It wasn't one of those 'oh each person's smiles are unique and different' thoughts,  It was more like I noticed that every person looked the most attractive when they were smiling.

My attention was constantly drawn to people who were smiling with sincerity. You know those smiles that people smile and it makes their eyes twinkle?? Those are so beautiful! I was just amazed how perfectly smiles like that fit on everyone's face. It's like God designed people's faces around how beautiful they would look when they were smiling. Really smiling!!

Have you ever noticed how contagious a smile can be? When I see someone smile it instantly makes me want to smile back. Even when I'm having a rough day! It's the same thing when people's faces light up when they see me. Those genuine "I'm happy to see you" expressions. Whenever I see that my face just naturally starts brightening up too!

Joy, laughter, smiles. Those are all contagious, and so beautiful!!

So Smile! I want to see your joy!!

Life.

Life is full of such crazy ups and downs, but at the end of the day, I am so thankful for friends and family that love me!

I used to be upset with life, and I used to think that I was alone with no one to care for me, but that wasn't true at all! Jesus was waiting for me to turn around and run into His arms! He was following right behind me in a pursuit that was so innocent and so pure. He chased me down no matter how far I ran, no matter how far gone I thought I was. He continues to pursue me with this sweetness and recklessness that is truely inspiring.

The day that I realized how much he loved me, I started to become aware of my own self-worth and my own importance. I was worthy of being chased, worthy of being pursued, and worthy of  Him waiting for me. The beautiful part is that everyone is worthy of those same things. He chases you like he chases me. He pursues you with a fierceness and a love that outshines any of the doubt, regret, shame, or depression that you carry with you.

He's waiting to take all of those things away from you and give you the greatness and the worthiness that He has called you to, all you have to do is reach out and accept it, and then start walking in it.

Isaiah 43: 1-3

"Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I a, the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your savior."


He's waiting for you........ Are you ready?....... Go!!

Where the Boomerang comes from.

So, I guess everyone following my blog would like to know where the title "The Annointed Boomerang" comes from.

I was doing some research on what my name "Kylie" means. I knew for a long time that it was a type of Australian boomerang, but I never realized how amazing a "Kylie" actually is!
I found this source while researching :http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20110405111136AAb67T1

A "Kylie" is an awesome non returning boomerang that generates lift as it spins through the air, allowing it to fly great distances without having an arc in it's flight. It is said that a common flight distance is 100 to 150 yards. That's one to one and a half football fields!! The Kylie was originally used for hunting and also for warfare. It was an intense weapon!

So, when I think of the spiritual significance of this, and I do, because names are important to a person's identity. I think that the Lord can use me for some intense hunting and warfare. I will have great stamina! Awesome name meaning in my opinion!!

That's all on the name for today!! Hope you guys have a great weekend! Happy Friday!!

Number One!!!

So I don't ever really see any theme that I will be using yet, but here we go!!
Blog Number One and I am excited!! :D


So, I was sickly today. >.< It was the type of sick that started with a pain in my stomach and then continued to be a slight nausea and fatigue for the rest of the day. So I took the day off! I'm currently in the middle of a Daniel Fast so I decided that potato soup was the best way to feel better!!
Having the kitchen to myself while everyone else was at work I made a scrumptious meal that the whole family enjoyed when they got home!!

How it went down:
I started by chopping and sauteing some onion and some garlic. Then I put the sauteed onion and garlic into a pan with a can of green beans and some tomatoes. I decided it needed more tomato flavor so I added some tomato sauce. To the amazing concoction I added some potatoes and some corn. It was incredibly yummy yummy yummy!!

First time making soup from scratch and I didn't even use or need a recipe! It was awesome!!

Now I'm watching survivor with gma and gpa while knitting another scarf! :D

Hope everyone else had an awesome Wednesday as well!!